Have you ever felt so guilty because your loved ones are placing too much emphasis on you? Be it things that you do, food that you eat, your feelings.
Have your dad ever quarreled with your mum over her packing much food back that comprises of similar food that you had prepared that she just feels like eating just because you have already cooked dinner that consists of yummy chicken drumlets?
Yes I’ve done much for them (they’re part of my responsibility, and doing them makes me happier, and doesn’t this family belong to all of us members?).
But I still don’t understand why my dad handed me 80 bucks today saying ‘Lianhua next week you exam. This 80 dollars you want eat also can, do what also can la hor’. (not eat money of cos)
I am so puzzled because – -
1) This is the 1st time he’s ever done something like this. Which links to the next point.
2) I have my DBS card (family shared account), OCBC card(he refills), POSB card & debit /credit card(he refills). So why does he still want to give me this 80 dollars?
3) Why do I need money since its exams? I thought it would be more appropriate if he gives money to me after I’ve passed my results or after exams when I need to have some fun out?
4) I really don’t understand.
Reasons I thought of for him giving me cash – -
Immediate:
1) He just earned some cash from driving Taxi and he doesn’t feel like depositing them since I need to take them out anyway
2) Even though I didn’t cook, I heated up food (the food Mum brought back for me last night) just for him and smsed to ask if he had eaten at 5pm sharp knowing that he is always very very hungry after work)
3) He is hungry and the food tastes great (Very possible)
4) He won 4D!!! (cannot be)
5) He found the money on the floor (maybe)
6) He won money from other gambling means (cannot cannot be, he don’t even drink)
7) He got his bonus (haha! Joke! -_-”’)
He’s feeling rich (Impossible, really)
Long-term:
4) I take care of this house and them (Possibly)
5) I am graduating from UNI that he didn’t
6) He did me wrong (LOL~!)
7) He did my Mum wrong (OPPS~, just kiddin’)
I know I need not think so much about it. But its just puzzling. Now he made me feel really guilty and shy instead
Because – -
1) I’m still not sure if i will pass my exams
2) He doesn’t know/ask/no idea/hear/check/find out how and where I spend the money
3) Its my duty to do things for the family and all, and I’m born with such a serving attitude, so there’s not need to pay me
4) I can take money from the bank anyway
5) Am I not using enough money already??
I am so shy that I dare not leave my room now. I don’t know how to react to him.
In a typical conservative Chinese family, a lot words are not ’spelled’ out to one another.
So let’s all pretend nothing happened.
Ha Ha Ha
Ho Ho Ho
3 Guys HAhaha
Even though I look doe eyed and all weird here, I like this cos DEVON’s inside!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Why so many ang mo’s??
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